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BAHHH. I've been so angry lately. GRAWRGH!!

Okay. I've been drowning myself in mindless shoujo manga just because I can't get what I want. It's pretty sad actually. So this is the list of shoujo manga that I've read so far:

Faster than a Kiss
Desire Climax
Hapi Mari

and I'm currently reading B.O.D.Y.

If you're into the sweet, romantic and corny - yet predictable - stuff, then these titles are for you! You can find them all on...

www.onemanga.com

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Heeeeeeeeeeey gaiz. So I REALLY wanted to post this yesterday but the matter at hand was more serious so I decided to save it for another post. But then I couldn't wait so I'm posting it now x)

I'm a BIG Wong Fu Productions fan. I've known about them since 2003 and I've been following them since. I may not have been able to go to their concerts or buy their merchandise but I really adore them. Anyway, one of their latest videos is just so funny that I had to share. (They obvs made really funny ones before but I don't have any blog posts just because I didn't have a blog then ._. ) Here's the link to the actual video:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HRpxydp2QEw&feature=player_embedded


and the Blooper Reel is even more hilair which can be found here:

http://wongfuproductions.com/2009/12/vlogging-secrets-blooper-reel/


Soooo funny xD; And the first lengthy short that they made that I will never EVER forget can be found here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FOyRWuklsiQ&feature=related


And my absolutely favourite one (it came in two parts):

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N8tPN6mUloY&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jjQH8qkbtQ4&NR=1


SPENCERRRRRRRRRR!!! <3

XXXVII

So we had a family crisis on Saturday night. My kuya (big brother) got into a fight at a club and whatnot and he was sent to the hospital. He's fine now though. Just some swelling and cuts. What happened was that...

I got a call at around quarter to 2 from my cousin and she told me that my kuya was in the hospital. I ran downstairs, told my dad and we left. My other cousin called my dad too and she told him how to get to VGH. Neither of us knew what happened so I began to worry. A LOT. If you don't know yet, I'm close to my kuya. Sooo much more than my ate (big sister). So yeah. I was really worried and I was tearing up, ready to cry. =(

We got at the hospital and saw who came with him to the hospital. Anyway, long story short... this guy bumped into my drunk brother, pushed him, my brother pushed him back and then there was a brawl. Only my brother's close friend and his older brother came to help out of the many that came with him. >_< Goes to show who his real friends are.

Piss me off so badly. I'm really really mad >:( How dare they do that to him. Those motherfuckers. ARGH!

Good thing he's fine now though so I guess it's all good. But revenge!! GRAWR.

P.S. As of right now, me going clubbing when I grow up is highly unlikely. -o-;

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I'm so sick and tired of my church youth. Yeah, we have talent. Yeah, we're really good musically. But we suck at focusing and practicing. It's pretty sad that we can't focus properly altogether as a co-ed group when our leader isn't there with us. It's really discouraging. Plus, we really suck with money issues and meeting deadlines. We ALWAYS have to scramble at the last minute to pay for things and we aren't very consistent at all. It pisses me off so much.

Then, when we have meetings, not that many people listen. There would be people listening but those who aren't, are too loud that no body notices at all. It's really frustrating...


So in my last two years of public school, I've had these two girls as best friends. Let's call them A and J. I've known J since we were in grade 6 and we're really good friends and she totally gets me! A is a year older than J and I and she was a transfer student. I was her FIRST friend EVER in the school, in all of Canada!

The situation is that I think they're ignoring me. I texted A and J to go watch a movie but I've received no replies. I messaged A 4 times on Facebook chat and once on MSN when she was on (cause she never is) and I received no reply. I recently texted and posted on J's Facebook wall asking how she was and I received no reply either. Are they ignoring me?

Plus, the fact that A got invited to J's Winter Formal and Artona pictures makes me upset. Not only am I upset about that but I begin to really miss Pinetree. I saw the Winter Formal and Artona pictures that my friends from PT took and my heart just sank. I really miss them and I feel like I'm missing out.

Suddenly, I felt like my whole world got smaller. I see a third of my classmates 6 days, sometimes 7 days, in a week. School AND church. My world is getting smaller. =(


Which brings me to my next point. Who are my real friends? I don't know anymore. Am I categorizing my "real" friends with those who fulfill my needs? If so, what's wrong with me? How selfish am I... FUCK.


I'm going to go back to being inactive in the church scene starting the new year. *sigh*

XXXV

Okay so I'm finally going to upload the pictures I took of my new EOS Pure Brown and EOS Adult Blues.

EOS Pure Brown

Close-up w/ Flash


Flash in bathroom lighting


No flash in bathroom lighting


Indoor lamp light


Doesn't enlarge much. Natural colour. Okay comfort (it felt more comfortable the first time straight out of the bottle compared to the next time I wore it after it was soaked @_@;



EOS Adult Blue
This time, the lighting conditions are in the pictures themselves.







No enlargement. I thought they'd be lighter =( From afar, you don't even notice them. Not very blue..WHAT COLOUR ARE THEY?! @_@; I wish the pupil hole was smaller. Okay comfort as well. Irritated abit after wearing it straight from the bottle but it felt okay. I have yet to wear these another time since I just got them today.

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Didn't our conversation sound familiar? A similar one we had before? Except maybe we had switched roles? HAH. Now you know how it feels. I'm sorry. I'm just not feeling it. What's got into me?

This thought has been running through my head for a few weeks now. Am I still "with" you because I'm scared of being alone? Am I scared of not having you beside me?

P.S. My brother's a jew. He said we were going to go to my younger cousin's birthday party but we didn't because he went somewhere else. What happened to family > anyone else? =(

P.P.S. You do so much for people because you care about them but they can't even do anything back for you. I hope that when it's my turn to have a debut, that I can count on you guys to help out.

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JEWS I TELL YOU!!

T____T I miss all my public school friends! But my so-called best female friends don't even contact me anymore! WHAT IS THIS!!! I miss them all! I know they haven't forgotten about me but like, I'm just so envious that they're all still friends and stuff and I'm not a part of it. I was a part of it but now I'm not...

I feel so alone now. And to think... T_T It's not that I'm not happy with my current school - don't get me wrong, I love them all - but I see these people at church weekly and stuff and like... I don't know. I miss PT.

I didn't have as much stress as I did in PT compared to DLS. There's so much more stress involved and like, yeah, more involved but then it's just so different. I miss them!! GRAWRGH!

XXXII

I'm sick =( Got better though so ^__^

Lost our basketball game yesterday by 8 points. We should have played harder after the second half then we would have won!! ARGH. But it's okay. 1-2 with 3 games left next year!

XXXI

My friend's debut was on Saturday night. VERY stressful. =( I was there from 4-10:30 and it started at 7PM. Helped their family and the youth band set up and stuff. I definitely learned lots of things for my own debut :P Teehee.

But yeah. We performed pretty well. It's just that the way the instruments and the vocals came together was really off (according to my father) so sad face =( The girls group (meaning me and my friends. aka ASADAY) did a song and a "special" song. So funny! Teehee x) Here's a link to the girls performing:

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#/video/video.php?v=356938930313

I'm the one in the yellow dress ^_^


SR. Boys Basketball team totally pwned Waldorf today. 112-30. WOW. GOOD JOB BOYS!

SR. Girls has a game this Wednesday against Carver. I hope we do well despite not having practice this week >_<;


So I forgot my dad's house keys and room keys inside his room yesterday. I locked the door too. =( We didn't have any house keys since I didn't bring mine so we ended up borrowing my brother's. I felt really bad because my dad ended up taking the doorknob apart T__T; Poor daddy...

Now, whenever I close the door to his room, it feels weird because I reach for the knob but it isn't there. IT'S SO WEIRD!! TRY IT AND YOU'LL DEFINITELY FEEL THE DIFFERENCE.

I searched for my baby photos for the yearbook yesterday. I WAS SUCH A CUTE BABY x) teehee. teehee. I definitely looked like a boy in my early years and holy fuck, I was so white. WHAT HAPPENED T___T EFF. But yeah. Then I looked at my own father's photo albums and I started tearing up. He was so handsome and fit as a young man! Wow...haha! I love my daddy! <3


Ordered a pair of Adult Blues. I hope it looks light blue and gray more than lavender or purple on me n_n

XXX

wooh. Well, definitely nothing XXX about this post! All I have to say is that I'm dead tired.

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"To be is to do. And the more there is on your to-do list, the more reassured you are that you must count for something."

This is a quote from Margaret Wente's book An Accidental Canadian: Reflections on My Home and (Not) Native Land but I read it from one of my textbooks in English 12 called The Act of Writing under the essay titled Busy, Busy, Busy.

Wow, that is a lot of italics. haha.

So if you don't understand what these two sentences are saying, it basically means that the more busy you are, the more alive and more needed you feel. For me, this quote speaks how I really am in an aspect of my life. I like to feel needed and therefore, I find ways to be really busy. I feel like I'm alive and that I'm contributing to this world in some way or another by being busy. The feeling of stress keeps me alive! It's strange, I know and sometimes I just want to breakdown and cry but I know that I have to hold my head up high and finish what I started.

On the up-side, if you involve yourself in something that you like, it's actually quite fun =) For example, I involve myself in church, my class and my school as a whole. I'm the social executive for both my class and the school, the secretary of my church youth group, a yearbook team member and being heavily involved in the behind the scenes of this play (and playing a part in it as well) AND being on the basketball team..that's a lot of stuff don't you think? But I like it! It keeps my mind off of things that make me feel unhappy even though some of these events bring unhappiness and stress, it's better than emotional unhappiness. =P

It's strange. It even came to the point where I'm starting to get bothered by the fact that my room is just so messy! I want to clean it @___@


So is anyone else out there like me? To be is to do?

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So it's that time of month again!

November 28, 2009 @ 11:00PM (*bust all the way down are in inches)

weight : 116 lbs (EVEN AFTER BBALL PRACTICE AND BBALL GAMES?! D: )
bust : 35 - 34B (still the same...DANGIT)
waist : 28.25 (when my dinner gets digested xD)
area between waist and hips : 31 (look above)
hips : 34 (I don't think this ever changes)
upper thighs : 21
knee-area thighs : 15
calves : 15
upper arm : 11.5
longest layers of hair : 10


Okay so some notes to remember...

CONTROL EATING D: Like yeah, I should seriously stop doing what I do and eat less. This past week, every time right after a game or after practice, I would just shovel food into my mouth. So I definitely got to stop that @_@;

Can't really help boob growth and hip changing o_O At least not that I can think of.

I made some improvement =D Knee-area thighs lost half an inch!! My hair grew 1.5 inches ^_^ And my upper arm lost .25 inches hahaha.

Technically, I gained in the waist and area between waist and hips but that's just cause I ate a fat dinner tonight =( By tomorrow, it will be gone so yeah.

So...
CONTROL EATING
KEEP EXERCISING
TAKE CARE OF HAIR


My friend's debut is in seven days. @_@ I'm so excited for her! Her theme is Lovers in Paris with yellow and purple colours (or so she says. purple definitely but I'm not feeling the yellow right now) and her mom wants pink. Anyway, I bought a yellow bubble dress. It's over the knee and is the same yellow as you can see on my blog, except deeper and more richer in colour. It has a cute small bow on the left side of the waist and you can accentuate the waist with a belt-type thing that you can tie at the back. I'll show pics someday or something x)

I'm not sure how to do my hair that night but definitely simple for make-up and half false lashes and my Pure Brown lenses =)

Sleeping over my friend's house was fun last night. As soon as everyone left, we went up to her room, changed and slept. LOL. Yep. Fun x) And I'm not being sarcastic. It was really refreshing to just sleep xD;

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Second basketball game today! It was against Bodwell High School and their students are mainly international students. Anyway...

we rocked =) 58-18 for us. MUAHHAHA XD;

I fouled someone, got fouled but didn't get any of my free throws in =( But it's cool! I played for almost a whole quarter! Not straight but all my minutes added up and stuff. ^_^ So cool.

I bought a yellow dress today for 52$. Pretty good. I hope the quality is just as! And I also bought a tube of Clinique Pore Minimizer Refining Lotion. I hope to minimize these craters on my face soon =_=

Pretty much stopped using Bio-Oil. Not sure what happened with that haha but I almost finished the bottle. I don't know where it is right now but yeah. =p

Lots of practicing this weekend. My friend is having her debut on the 5th and our Youth is performing + we're dancing too. @_@; Crazy! So now, I'm off to pack since I'm sleeping over her house tomorrow night. n_n

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First basketball game of the season today. First basketball game on a real team EVER for me. I was nervous the WHOLE day, even yesterday!! We played against Meadowridge, a private school alllll the way in Maple Ridge. So far!! D: Anyway the results are... 44-37 for the other team. We may not have won but we tried our best. We played good defense and we really need to work on our offense.

I played for around 4-5 minutes; at the end of the first half (so second quarter) and at the very end (so fourth quarter). I would've liked to have made my one and only shot at a..well..a shot haha. But it's okay!

Their girls were taller than us, well for the most part. There was one girl as short as me but she was their shortest @_@; We have an even shorter girl and she's really good at her job. But yeah.

We'll have to try better this Thursday when we play against Bodwell! =)

GOOD JOB LADIES!

XXV

Volunteered yesterday from 12PM-3PM @ a flu clinic. It was pretty boring =/ I just stood there directing people to which nurse to go to to get their shots done. But that's three down, seven more to go!

First basketball game on Tuesday and it's with a really good team! I'm so nervous, so scared but God will be there beside our team's side and we'll do really well! :D

Totally re-wrote my short story. Still not done yet. I should start working on it...

My new name is now Honey Pie =) But it's not really sticking so I might as well go back to being Izzy -__-;

Will get to doing a EOS Pure Brown review soon. Just need to remember to take pictures of it during day time since it's impossible to by the time I go home. Because here in Vancouver, the sun is already down by 4PM and I get home around 5-ish. So go figure. n_n It's really pretty though! Lighter than I thought actually...but yeah. I like the colour. =]

Need to go dress shopping soon for my friend's debut. Purple or yellow? WHICH ONE?! @_@;

XXIV

Trip to Alberta = so fun. so awesome. so many memories with friends. *sigh*

My first official basketball practice = pretty fun. Learned lots and I need to keep learning to play better!

Got my EOS Pure Brown contacts today! Review coming up soon. One thing though is that they're lighter and show up more than I thought O_O

Short story due on Thursday. All I got is an ending. FUCK.

Still finding venues for my debut.

I'd really like to volunteer but all the flu clinics are during Fridays and Saturdays when I'm most busy @_@ WAHHHH.

Report cards soon...those are the marks I'll be entering in for university applications. DANGIT.

XXIII

You can think of Love Languages as either a bad thing or a good thing.

Bad thing: Use it to make people fall in love with you easily when you really don't feel anything/the same way towards them.

Good thing: Use it to make people that you love fall in love with you and for both of you to fall deeply together and keep the fire in your romance.

I hope it's more of the latter for everyone than the former.


I'm going to Alberta from Nov. 8-13 for a school trip. I used to not be able to wait for it but now I don't really care as much. I don't know why but the appeal just went down. Strange! =[ Maybe it's cause I just recently found this one girl really annoying. A whiny little spoiled bitch who overreacts to everything and is a total attention whore. But it's cool. After coming from a broken family, it makes sense.

Learned how to play 4 notes on the bass today and actually know what notes they are! I'm so proud of myself x)

XXII

On the giving end, I'm fluent in Gifts. I can still speak Words of Affirmation, Physical Touch and Quality Time but not as strong as gifts. I can teach GSL =)!

On the receiving end, my main love language dialect is Quality Time. Words of Affirmation is my second language.

Where's Acts of Service?! It's in there. I'll work on it after I improve the ones that I already know.


In other news...

I hope to volunteer for a flu clinic and as a gift wrapper in Metrotown =)

Finally purchased EOS Pure Browns. Impulse buy n_n I hope they're a nice rich brown and won't make my eyes look black =_=

Just want to give a shout-out to the DLS Senior Girls Volleyball Team!! I love you guys! Y'all rock =) Even if you didn't get what you wanted, you're still the fucking best!

XXI

Please don't leave me. I'll fall apart if you do. Just the thought of it is bringing me to so much tears already.

We still haven't done a bunch of things together. I haven't seen you enough. I haven't hugged you enough. I haven't even held your hand tightly yet.

Please get better soon. I love you.

God, please don't take him away from me yet. =]

XX

Basketball practice today! Was actually really fun. I didn't expect it to be the way that it was. I thought that there'd be more running but there wasn't. I learned two new drills that I could do at home! YES
a) jog. plant feet. pivot left up/down or right up/down.
b) jog. plant feet. touch ground w/ both hands. stay low. firefeet. arms up. side step to left/right

I'm so proud of myself that I got through it ^___^!! I think I might be playing a Guard position since our coach put me in that group during some shooting practice/drills. Hmmmmmm... But I must definitely work on my left hand dribbling and shooting. MUSCLE MEMORY FOR THE PROPER STANCE !!


In other news...

Nerd Day at my school today! Ironic thing was that during Math class, not that many people understood what was going on. And we were all nerds! haha. =P


STILL not finished cleaning my room =_=


Planning to buy a pair of Max Pure Grays since I want the noticeable gray colour and the effect looks REALLY pretty =) I plan to buy some blue ones before grad pictures too. If the colour isn't as noticeable for the grays then I'll be really sad =( Here's an ad for the Max Pure Gray.

XIX

So my school is gay. I need Calculus 12 to get into UofT Commerce but my school doesn't offer it. I don't want to learn from the internet. Fuck that. I might be forced to take History 12 but then I really do need Calculus 12 cause it might be a requirement for some Commerce courses. FUCK. D:

In other news...I feel happy. I'm really dedicated to learning how to play basketball well that I did some drills at 11:20-11:50 xD That and we have practice tomorrow and I'd like to get more stamina just so I don't fall behind TOO much. I don't have P.E. so yeah.. Not very fit =/

Who knew planning a big party would be such a hassle -_- Gotta figure out... venue, guest list, program, invitations, give-aways, food, guests, specific special guests, special performances, AV equipment and worst of all, BUDGET.!!

Still not finished cleaning my room. =_=

My aunt from Japan came today! She brought back tons of Japanese food stuffs n_n Yummmmmmmmmy. And I got a new wallet. I have like..4 new un-used wallets. I had 5 but gave one away. My current one is still in really good condition so I don't see the need to replace it >_< So DON'T give me wallets as presents UNLESS there's dollar bills in there in increments bigger than $20 ;)

Should I tell my mom that I'm in love but not necessarily have a boyfriend? She asked me over the phone earlier. I feel like I should just cause I never talk to her about boy issues and it's like a normal mom thing to do..y'know?

XVIII

Cleaning room. ... ... AGAIN. It's SO messy. I don't know where to start. Fuck.

I have seven months to go down to 100 lbs, lose upper arm flab, lose calf fat, lose thigh cellulite, lose stomach blubber, shrink a waist, gain a butt, grow boobs, grow my hair out and achieve porcelain (or at least close to) skin. Allllll for the sake of my 18th birthday party. Weewooooo. Let's do some measuring shall we n_n

October 28, 2009 @ 11:00PM (*bust all the way down are in inches)

weight : 114 lbs
bust : 35 - 34B (only cause bigger cup = comfortable..not cause my actual boobs are that big)
waist : 28.75
area between waist and hips : 31.5 (fattest area of stomach)
hips : 34
upper thighs : 21
knee-area thighs : 15.5
calves : 14.75
upper arm : 11.75
longest layers of hair : 8.5

My action plan is to try really hard in basketball, weight-lift, control my eating and diet. :D

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I'm back! Renovations are almost done and my computer is hooked up! Yay =) All that's left are the dark green four leaf clovers on my yellow walls and the rearranging of my room. weewoooooooooooooooo.

FCA (Fellowship Christian Athletes) Football Tournament this past weekend. I was on the senior team and guess what? WE WON! And the best thing about it is that WE'RE the first senior team to win it. :) PLUS, this is the FIRST year that my school has Grade 12 and an actual senior team. We're just too cool :]

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So my room is pretty much almost bare now, with the exception of the computer table and my super messy closet that won't even be touched and my sleeping bag and other random junk that doesn't take too much space, and I LOOOVE it. I get to sleep on the floor for the next night or two. I kind of really like that idea =)

We're renovating my room..ish sort of. Replacing the carpet with hardwood floors (yeah..my carpet is REALLY dirty. I haven't vacuumed it in forever!!) and painting my walls! I'm going for the Honey and Clover theme of pale yellow walls (representing honey) and green four leaf clover prints (representing the well...clover haha). Then hopefully, I'll get to redecorate my room.


credits to animewallpaper.net..or was it .com. =X

Which reminds me..I need to design and plan it out so I know what to buy/how to decorate it and whatnot. For sure though, I will NOT be having a bedframe. It just makes things so much better. Teehee. And I want the computer on a lowww table. Like, I want everything to be low in this room! It's just so much more convenient in my opinion and so much more comfier! =) Even with hardwood floors, I wouldn't mind. I'll figure out some way to cover the floor with carpets or something XD;

PS. visit my twitter.

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Sorry for not posting anything lately. I TOTALLY forgot I had this blog =X Anyway...
HI! :D

XIV

So this update is all about....FOOD! Japanese food to be exact. I did say I'll do posts on food from my description *points up top* And here goes.

Today, I'll be talking about my long over-due blog post about Japanese food XD; Since my cousin came back from Japan in April, or May, she brought back some yummy instant stuff hah.

Here's a picture of our Japanese instead food cupboard before her arrival.


The stuff that we got. I X'd out what we already ate.



This next section are my creations. It's a simple Japanese meal that can be cooked by ANYBODY :D


First up is Miso Soup:


Quite easy really. All you do is boil a pot of water and for every small packet of miso, you put in one packet of dashi!

I used one packet from this box:


And a packet of this:


picture credits to http://www.tokyokan.fi/miso07.jpg and http://musable.com/images/dashi_02042007.jpg


Next up is Onigiri! Or Rice Balls.


All I did is cooked some rice. Then you need to have 2 bowls with you. One bowl is filled with water and salt. The other bowl is for where you put your chunk of rice. So this is how it goes:

Scoop out some rice to your desired size.
Wet your hands with the water and salt mixture.
Take the rice into your hands and start shaping it to whatever shape you want.
Then you're done!

You can add furikake (dried up vegetables. it's the colourful stuff you can see in my rice balls. and it comes in packets or little bottles) to your rice balls or put stuff in the middle like corned beef, canned tuna, preserved plum or whatever else you want. You could also cover it with seaweed or cover just a bit. Be creative! ^_^


And the main course is Chicken Karaage. It's really yummy hehe.

So I marinaded the chicken wings overnight. Two parts cooking wine to one part soy sauce. Add salt and pepper to taste and you NEED ginger juice. I kind of just eye-balled all these so you might have to as well. I didn't use that much ginger juice though but you realllly need it.

Wash the chicken and then put it in a biiig Ziploc bag with the marinade inside and leave it in your fridge overnight. Then it'll come out like this!


Then you need two bowls. Fill one bowl with alot of cornstarch and dust the surface of the other bowl with cornstarch as well. See, like so:


And then you need to have a small pot ready. It needs to be filled with oil halfway through and must be very hot. I suggest you set this up before you take the chicken out of the fridge so it's really hot by the time you put your chicken in. After you put your marinaded then coated chicken in the pot of super hot oil, take the heat down to medium. This allows the inside of the chicken to be cooked while not burning the outside.


You have to poke it halfway through to let some oil in to help cook it inside as well. And don't forget to turn the chicken over!

Then after all this hard work, you get chicken karaage! Yum yum yum.



I hope you guys enjoyed this insanely long post -_-; But yeah. :) Comment and share your experiences!

XIII

Okay so I tried out the daily mask schedule thingy but it was a baaaaaaaaad idea. I broke out like crazy!! I didn't even bother taking pictures cause I forgot ^^;; Haha sorry. But yeah. DON'T DO WHAT I DID. Using stuff on your face almost every single day is VERY bad. Like...SO bad T_T; I wanted to cry cause of what I was doing to my face. So I stopped and my face went back to normal :D Yay! Now, I only stick to my Aspirin and Honey Mask every Tuesday and my Egg White Mask alternating with this Pineapple Peeling Gel from Skinfood every Thursday. Then I exfoliate on Saturday nights on the weeks where I used the Egg White Mask. Exfoliate 2-3 times a week ladies! Especially if you have alot of dead skin cells.

So a small skin update. Mm...ever since I started caring for it in September/October, it's gotten better. And by better I mean smoother and softer feeling. However, it doesn't look that way since I have scars all over my face and like T_T; I can't help but pick at it!! Grawrgh. So in short, it feels smooth and soft but looks totally deranged =( And I keep breaking out at my jawline. It's reallly bad. Nonetheless, my trip back to the Philippines will cure it all (hopefully) !!


And on another note, I have my own (kind-of) circle lens selling business. Here's the link to the Facebook group:

All the information is there and on the discussion boards, along with some photos. Scroll down a bit and you will see =) If I had the power to control the outline of my group, stuff would be on the side too. BAHH. They took out that feature =( So anyway, order from me! Free shipping worldwide and comes with a free lens case. And if you order one of our new lenses, you'll get a free travel kit ^~


In other news...I dyed my hair. *sigh* My parents told me that I had to since I'm going back to the Philippines. My bleached hair won't work for them. Spam pictures before Friday! ^^

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So to cross off some stuff. Here's my GEO Nudy Brown and Nudy Gray review + pictures =)

GEO NUDY GRAY

So here's a picture with sunlight.


And the only time I could get a halo =/ Sunlight yet again with some flash


This picture proves that light coloured eyes go well with pale skin and dark coloured hair =p


Colour: 7/10
I wish it came out lighter on me. I REALLY wanted a light light light gray but I guess my true eye colour is too dark =[

Comfort: 4/10
I could that it was there and it dried out my eyes really easily. I had to take them out in the middle of a movie ><; And just over-all, it wasn't good. Slid out and stuff.

Enlargement: 5/10
Compared to my dark lenses, these ones didn't seem to enlarge as much for me. Plus, I didn't get a halo.

Overall: 5/10
This pair is just not for me. It disappointed me on so many levels ><; I thought I'd like it alot but it turned out the complete opposite. I had to throw it out cause it hurt my eyes alot this one time so I didn't want to risk it and threw the pair away.


GEO NUDY BROWN

Flash + bright light


Normal flash


Comfort: 8/10
One eye felt like nothing was there. The other eye bothered me abit =( I checked it and it had a hole in it ><;;

Colour: 3/10
Yet again, it's disappointing. I wanted a brown-y gold-ish orange-type colour but all I got was a mix of forest greens and brown mud except uglier. I absolutely hated the colour. I bought it cause I thought it'd match my orange-ish hair but it did not. Highly disappointing.

Enlargement: 5/10
Same as GEO Nudy Gray

Overall: 5/10
The comfort brought it up but the colour kept it down. I threw it out cause of the tear. Not like I would've worn it alot anyway since the colour is so ugly =(


So there you have it. My GEO Nudy Gray and Brown review. I guess these lenses just are not for me. I don't get a halo and my eyes are naturally too dark. *sigh* Oh well. I'll find the pair that's right for me.

On another note, get ready for a photo-spam of myself as a blue-eyed blonde since tonight is my last night as Fireball =P


Went to the Richmond Night Market tonight with my nii-nii and auntie. All I did was eat and walk around xD;; I couldn't find anything that I wanted =/ Plus, I didn't have any money so I had to borrow some from my aunt x_x; Well, tis all!


P.S. I SAW KENN TONIGHT. HAHAHAHA XD; Yummy Papaya Salad dude =) Good job! And the fact that I didn't cause a scene (since I usually do [well, in my opinion at least. I think I'll look back to this night and think "Hmm...I didn't do anything that will scar Kenn or I for life. Awesome possum!!"] and I *think* I didn't. hopefully Kenn didn't either =X) makes me feel proud of myself :D

P.P.S. or is it P.S.S.? ANYWAY. Uhm, I bought me-self a Bobbi Brown Gel Eyeliner in Black Ink. It's really nice. Goes on easily but kind of hard to put on at times since it kinda smudges abit during the application process. But maybe that's cause my brush sucks XD; Probably why. Anyway, it's REALLY hard to take off. As in, homg. But then my mom's Estee Lauder Gentle Eye Makeup Remover is really really good. Unfortunately, I knocked it down a few months ago and wasted half of what was left T___T; But yeah. BUY BOBBI BROWN GEL EYELINER LADIES. It's REALLY good. Price is less than 30$ but more than $25 cause of taxes. Rather pricy but really good. It'll take me a long time before I run out. =p

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So...I've never gotten around to those reviews XD; Sorry. Been REALLY busy lately. Anyway, just to let y'all know, I'm STILL alive =)

I got me-self a twitter so follow me at: http://twitter.com/izmeister15

So here's my to-do list for this blog:
-->new hair pictures (cause it's 3-toned now LOL)
-->Hard Candy lip glosses review
-->GEO Nudy Gray/Brown experience (very short ones too boooooo) *DONE*
-->Bio-Oil update *DONE*
-->that daily mask schedule thing I had going on *DONE*
-->circle lenses business *DONE*
-->whatever else comes to mind

Support my friend! He's awesome, talented and dare I say it - hot. Well, by my standards at least. And it's over-all that makes him hot x) teehee. Subscribe to him at: http://www.youtube.com/user/carvyluceno

So that's pretty much it for now =)

BTW, YAAAAAAA LAKERS. PWNED MAGIC >)

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Yay! 10th post ^_^ I bought two Hard Candy lip glosses the other day. I'll post them up tomorrow and do a review with pictures.

@_@ OMGosh. So I'm just really obsessed with getting rid of my acne ): I'm so desperate right now that I'm planning to do a homemade mask almost every night. I made a chart to sum it all up. =)


Credits to: foodsubs.com, Disney, celebrations.com, tuxpaint.org, curlycutie.com, celebritiesforhealth.com and St. Ives for the pictures.

Eep! The quality sucks T_T;; but I hope it isn't that bad. Yeah, I gotta stay dedicated for this to work ><

I'll post up the recipes that I used for each mask and I'll do a mini-journal thingy with pictures. I'll just use the pictures I took for the Bio-Oil and do a massive update talking about what worked and what didn't then. Which should be in two weeks. Or maybe y'know what, I'll just take pictures now and update seperately =)


In other news, the playoff teams that I've been following for the past week and a half (numbers correspond with the placing of the team name) :

LA Lakers vs Utah Jazz: 1-0
Vancouver Canucks vs St. Louis Blues: 3-0
New Orleans Hornets vs Denver Nuggets: 0-1

I'm rooting for LA (pretty obvious. Kobe-time and Trevor Ariza!), Vancouver (I'm a Vancouverite :3) and New Orleans (CP3 baby!!).

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I was logged on this MMORPG that I play and I sent a message on guild chat. This guy that I really-really-really-absolutely-so-much-unbelievably-huge-amount-really like was on but he didn't reply the first time I said something so I thought he wasn't there. Thinking that he was asleep, I started typing out a snippet of my feelings:

"ne...
i could have booked my ticket on the 24th of june
but i kept it at the 3rd of july cause
i wanted some time to chill with you after school ends"

(or something like that)

and he said

"you don't have to postpone your trip for me
i didn't ask you to do that"

Funny thing is that some hours before that...around 5 or something before I took a nap, I was thinking that he would say that. Then I started having imaginary conversations that go like so:

"hey look, i gotta go. i have tutor"
"tutor? for what?"
"chem and bio 12"
"oh. why dont you just ask me?"
"well, i'm somewhat of a visual learner so i need someone to show me how things work and stuff"
"i could show you. why didn't you just ask me?"
"it's too far for both of us"
"does your tutor go to your place or do you go to his or do you meet somewhere?"
"oh, we meet somewhere"
"... where?"
"vancouver"
"then how is it any different from asking me?"
"i dont know. anyway, i gotta head out. i'm going to be late"
"fine. whatever"

Then he'd get mad and then we'd fight then I'd end up telling him that I think that he doesn't want to see me. Then all this drama and whatnot. Nonetheless, it's not like it will happen. Anyway, I made myself promise myself to never ask him to hang out anymore.

Moving on, after he told me that, I started crying and crying and it just really hurt. Then later on, he called me and I told him how when I go back to the Philippines, I wanted to get a nose job and reduce some fat in some areas. After 5 minutes or so of allowing him to think about it, he said that it was fine. I'm not sure if he said that because he actually thinks that it's okay or because he doesn't want to stop me from doing something that I want to do. Either way, I felt offended because now I think that he thinks I'm ugly. BAHHHH.

I guess I understand where he's coming from since my mind changes alot. I used to think that my nose was okay but then I'm starting to think that maybe it isn't to my liking. Now I'm having second thoughts yet again. AHHHHHHH.

EDIT: After much careful consideration and thought, I decided that my nose is what makes me Filipino and that I wouldn't do anything to change it. You can hold me to that :D

Oh and the answer came to me. I'm sticking to Guy A since the probability of seeing Guy B isn't very high and he said that he was going through a phase where he wants a Vietnamese girl for a girlfriend so...yeah.

Listening to acoustic sad songs doesn't help either. It just increases the paaaaaaaaain.

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It's been more than a week of having opened these babies and it's time to review them officially! I posted the picture below on soompi as a mini-review so here's my more in-depth review of GEO CK-107.



Comfort - 7/10
My EOS Gold-Blacks are definitely more comfortable than my CK-107s. These lenses are more drying and irritating to my eyes and that frustrates me because I REALLY like how they look. I haven't used any eye drops since I don't have any but maybe if I buy some, the comfort level would go up at least one level. Also, maybe I need some time getting used to these lenses since they are pretty big. x)

Enlargement - 9/10
They're biiiiiiig and I love the big-ness! I'm at 90% to getting used to seeing myself with bigger eyes. Not completely there yet but I know I'm almost there. They're so big and dolly and I just love it! My next target would be the DM-23s after maybe 8 months into these lenses.

Design - 8/10
Without flash and extreme flash, they look almost the same as the EOS Gold-Blacks but the CK-107s are darker. Waaaay darker. I really like it x) I just wish that the little flame like gradient design thing going on is more visible cause if it were, it'd look sooo cool n_n But they're black lens and we buy them for the dolly effect, not the design haha.

Overall - 8/10
I just wish that they were more comfy T_T Then they'd be better lenses for me D: Must. Get. Used. To. Them. !! Cause I just love the effect o:

So I hope that I helped someone decide whether or not they want to get these lenses or not. They're pretty good so you should anyway :D

I haven't done a formal review of my current favourite pair, EOS Gold-Black, yet so that will be my next post! Stay tuned! ^^

P.S. Sorry for the ugly skin. <_<;; I'm currently working on that :D
P.P.S. Just curled lashes and mascara for make-up @@ That's why it looks so plain ):

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Okay it's been two days since my alleged "tomorrow" and here it is! I decided to omit the facetrading cause it doesn't seem all that interesting anyway. @@;

It's a white blouse with a really long collar thingy that ties into a bow! It's really really cute x) I bought it for 23$CAD online. The bad thing about it is that it's tight around the chest and shoulder area. As in..REALLY tight. I have small boobs but frick. This blouse makes it seem like I have double D's. @_@ My aunt had to move the buttons over and even then it's still too tight. The sleeves are abit short but I don't mind. I could always fold them up anyway. So here are the pictures:

I have a whole body picture to model how long it was on me. Not that long actually, just a bit past my waist. (I'm 5".5' btw. REALLY short, I know.) Don't mind the pudgy legs and the kilt. I wore it to school today and that's the standard uniform.


And then a close-up.


And just cause I'm a cam-whore, another close-up with flash!



Beauty Regimen:

Every Tuesday, I MUST do the Aspirin Mask and clean out my pores using that pore cleaner thing =) Every Thursday, I MUST do the Egg White Mask to close up my pores even more. =) Everyday, I MUST wash my face twice, tone it twice, use Bio-Oil twice, moisturize twice and use sunscreen once. Every other day, I MUST use Extra Virgin Olive Oil on my eyelashes to make them longer and thicker.

I noticed that the smoother your skin becomes, the less Bio-Oil you will need to apply. At the beginning of my Bio-Oil adventure, I used three drops and it just about covered my whole face and part of my neck. Now, three drops is too much O_O Well, smoother = less surface area compared to a bumpy and uneven complexion. Awesomeness! It's working x)


Moving on to other things; I've been looking through another online store and they're having a 50% OFF EVERYTHING SALE and I'm immediately sucked into it. They sell wigs, clothes, accessories and decorated nails! Very cute =) As much as I'm interested in the nails, I don't think I'd be allowed to wear them to my school ): I'm not finding anything that I fancy for the clothes and the accessories either. Now, as you can see, I have a short mullet going on but I'd like to have longer hair too! So I checked out their wigs catalogue and set myself on three wigs.

http://www.hime.ecrater.com/product.php?pid=3196509
Do I really need this much hair though? It seems alot but then it'd be fun to try and do fish braids on it. x) Kind of wary of the bangs though @@; I like the volume but at the same time, it looks a bit too much.
Price after deduction: 22.50$CAD

http://www.hime.ecrater.com/product.php?pid=3196185
Looks very cute and natural. I like it cause of it's length. Wary of the bangs as well ><; The volume and the way it's styled makes it look more put together than the first wig. Price after deduction: 27.50$CAD

http://www.hime.ecrater.com/product.php?pid=3196108
Looks really cute and natural as well. It's shorter though but it looks more innocent. I'm digging the side bangs but then it's straight and I've always had straight hair and since it's synthetic, I can't really curl it @@;
Price after deduction: 24.00$CAD

I could always just buy two o_o; But then if I'm going to grow my hair out, it'd be kind of a waste. Wahhh D: But I really want long hair naooo T.T Can someone help me decide? Anybody there reading my blog? ._.

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"Every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back." So keep smiling and be optimistic!

That is the core meaning of which I try to get across to people who are acting all sad and depressed. I wish they understand that quote and it's meaning and realize wholeheartedly that they're missing out on life; that they are not moving forward with their life by staying in the emotional state they are in. I know it's easier said than done but keep trying. Hopefully, you can learn to see the brighter side of things; and mushed together with your past experiences, you will know the border between being naive and being reasonable.


Hmm...I went pluck-happy today. I plucked my arm pits and my eyebrows x) I guess that's abit too much information for you guys, but who's reading anyway -o-; Nonetheless, tomorrow I will have to bleach my eyebrows again cause they're looking too dark. Maybe shorten the hairs abit cause I noticed with some ullzangs and J-rockers that they aren't long nor are they short as stubble. The eyebrow hairs are trimmed and mid-length. =)

Bio-Oil is doing okay. I got some pimples here and there @@ I need to use the Aspirin Mask again soon and try and dry my pimples out x) I REALLY want clear skin T_T It feels smooth and clear but the complexion is just dead ugly! D: Whhhhhhy!! Oh man, I will definitely go to Vicky Belo for treatments when I go back to the Philippines. Freaking hell, I don't care about the risks. I just want my clear skin T_T


I'll post about my facetrading adventures at Richmond today and a picture of what I bought from someone tomorrow =) But for now, I think that I should go wash my face since I'm about to go to sleep. That and I think that the pores on my eyebrows should be closed by now x)

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So I finally decided to join the bandwagon and try out Bio-Oil. I'll be updating my journal weekly starting tomorrow to keep track of my progress/epic phailing.

"Bio-Oil® is a specialist skincare product that helps improve the appearance of scars, stretch marks and uneven skin tone. Its advanced formulation, which contains the breakthrough ingredient PurCellin Oil™, also makes it highly effective for numerous other skin concerns, including aging skin and dehydrated skin. " (http://www.bio-oil.com/en/uses.html)

My current skin care routine right now is as follows:

Clinique 3-step system. Lol. I forgot the exact products but I'll upload pictures tomorrow. I've been using it for 6 months now and I must say that my skin has significantly improved over-all! I get break-outs when I begin to get my period but they go away afterwards. I really like my Clinique and I hope that with the addition of Bio-Oil, my skin will become better.

I also exfoliate my face with St. Ives Apricot Scrub twice each week and use the Aspirin Mask at least once a week (or I try to). If i were more consistent with my mask, maybe results will be sped up haha.


I wore my GEO CK-107s today. My E-GCs were more comfy lulz. I just need some time getting used to them and well, I wore them for 10-12 hours so yeah =_= I guess that's why. Also, I still can't get used to the fact that my eyes look so much bigger @_@ It's crazyyyyy. But yeah, with persistent use, I will definitely get used to them! Then maybe I'll move on to Dueba DM-23 Browns and have HUUUGE eyes x)

IV

So I gots me two guys. Both who really really like me and I really like both of them as well. It's really complicated. There's A and there's B.

A - known for almost 7 years, lives faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar, close to me, irregular chats here and there, I've liked him ALOT when I met him but then some drama happened and we never had our own time together
B - almost 3 years, lives near, close to me, talked alot the past 3 years, I really really like him but he has some temper issues and is kinda anti-social so it's hard to drag him out and see me

They don't know each other but A knows about B and some stuff that we do. I told B that A and I have been talking lots and late into the night last week and he seemed jealous. @_@

Bah! All I need is patience to see where things will go and hopefully the decision will be made for me by then.


Turns out that Guy A was NOT who I thought he was but he still seemed pretty hardcore rocker with the spiked up hair and unnatural colour highlights (very few though). My brother was nice enough to take me to the nearest Skytrain Station to my house ^_^ I just bussed and walked home =]

I got my two new pairs of circle lenses yesterday. EOS Gold-Black and GEO CK-107. I opened my EOS Gold-Black and soaked them overnight and wore them today. They look pretty good. I'm still not used to having bigger looking eyes though @_@ I need to wear my circle lenses more often.

I'll probably open the GEO CK-107 in a month or so after I get used to my EOS Gold-Blacks. =)

Here's some pictures with me wearing them and here's the link for the review that I did on this pair: http://www.soompi.com/forums/index.php?s=&showtopic=122581&view=findpost&p=12946704

III

I watched an OVA (Original Video Anime) called Strait Jacket the other day and I really liked it. Even though it was only 3 episodes and the over-all feel to it is very shounen and FMA-like, the way things were represented really caught me. And it's also probably the gore, psychological stuff and over-all creepiness of the Demons. If you're looking for something short (and this OVA is REALLY short) and are fond of the whole Full Metal Alchemist stuff, I suggest that you watch Strait Jacket.


So I was supposed to facetrade with TWO people today. Guy A in a major mall at 12:00PM and Girl A at 3:00PM in another different mall. Now, my parents don't want me going far away without someone else with me so I asked my aunt to come with me. Then something happened. My aunt went to church and won't be back until 2:00PM. She's walking too. Since I can't go anywhere without someone else and I can't find other people, I basically can't go. So then I messaged Girl A and she was totally okay with it. Then I messaged Guy A and the first thing I heard was "What the hell?" I don't mind. I totally understand why he would be pissed. We made arrangements and I failed to comply. Nonetheless, I made another arrangement with him today to meet at the same place at 4:30PM.

What's worse is that I searched for Guy A on Facebook to get a better idea of who I am going to be meeting up with and how they look like. I scrolled down and I immediately saw who I was going to facetrade with. It was this guy who I saw playing at a concert two years ago and he's a hardcore J-rocker, involved in a band and everything. I didn't want to make a bad impression to ANY of my customers but I just did. And it happened to be this guy that was just. UGH. My dear auntie, WHY MUST YOU DO THIS TO ME. In any case, I hope she isn't tired from walking and that my brother does not leave the house so we could get a ride from him.


Bah! My love life is a mess. I'm unofficial with these two guys that I really like but since I'm considering them both, I don't think that I'm in love with either of them >< One's really sweet and caring but he's far. The other is considerate and a hard-worker and he's near but doesn't like going out. Oh the dilemma. A guy who I've known for almost seven years or a guy who I've known for almost 3 years? I feel like I know them both pretty well. A bit unclear still on the far guy but it'll clear up and sunshine will shine through the clouds. Neither know I'm flirting with the other which is really mean of me but I have to figure out my standings with both boys. The far guy is still unsure of me since I'm a submissive and he doesn't trust me fully yet. The nearer guy doesn't like to call us an item since if he did, he'd want to see me everyday but can't.

I don't get the last statement. A label just makes everything THAT complicated? Mmm...I guess. I don't know. Oh well.

II

I've had the actual braces for a year and a half and I've been on braces treatment for almost two years. Some memorable things:

`4 teeth taken out 4 years ago, all of which were extra
`6 teeth taken out 2 years ago [2 extra teeth, 4 wisdom teeth] all in one go
`last baby tooth taken out
`weirdo placed teeth exposed
`getting my brackets for the very first time
`elastics and rice crackers

Ah painful yet good times and all for the sake of looking decent enough for people to look at. Also to be thanked for because of weight loss.


My computer has been infiltrated by 34 infections. Currently downloading AVG8.5 and installing Spybot. Hopefully it will clean out my computer since I absolutely cannot afford to lose all my files. Thanks to my friend who suggested the said treatments.


First day of school today. I was dead tired since I was on the "phone" (actually an MSN call) until 4:30AM and had to wake up two and a half hours later. Good thing I was able to go home early today due to my orthodontist appointment. Right when I got home, I slept for four hours :)


Make-up and hair tuts will be up soon when I don't get lazy. Also, I'm addicted to acoustic songs. If you are into those as well, give a listen to:

`Gabe Bondoc
`AJ Rafael
`Kaleo
`James Morisson (I know he isn't fully acoustic but I'm in love with his voice nonetheless)
`Colbie Caillat (read ^)

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First post for this blog! I'm so excited. You can check out what to expect from the description above. It isn't showing how I want it to so I'll just re-type it here.


Androgynous-ity at its finest ** with...

`make-up and hair tips+tutorials for the ladies and the men.
`daily ramblings about life, love and the like.
`anime, Asian drama, and music recommendations, comments and dawdles.


So yeah, am I a guy or a girl? Can anybody guess?